So the last 4 weeks of my life have been a crazy whirlwind, roller coaster of emotions…
Mom went to the Emergency Room January 9th, because of some extreme difficultly breathing. Several days later received a diagnosis of cancer, which had spread throughout her body. She didn’t have any pain or symptoms of cancer which the Doctors continued to be surprised by. She was admitted to LGH Sunday, January 26th because her breathing was incredibly labored and stayed with an amazing nursing staff (8 Lime) and ICU Unit, and great teams of doctors, for the next 16 days.
I spent significant time in her room the last 2 weeks. Sitting. Listening. Watching. Praying. Helping. Caring. Loving. Being…. I can’t say how many LGH staff came to Mom’s room and commented on how different it “felt”. It was peaceful. There was rest. Fear, panic and discouragement wasn’t seen. They kept saying the demonstration of love from friends and family was unlike any they had really seen in a long time, if ever! The love, kindness and gratitude we all showed the staff – day in and day out – was amazingly beautiful and not commonplace.
Obviously with any life-threatening situation….. You have questions and I am no exception — one morning as I sat in my room before heading to be with Mom, I asked heaven my questions – which were not many…. I felt like His response was, “Yes Shauna, you love her dearly but I love her more – and it’s time for her to be with me!” Mom and I talked later that morning and I told her that – she smiled, nodded her head and said she was ready to go.
Mom and I had some amazing conversations the past 2 weeks – ones that have shifted my perspective about life and love and that I will treasure forever! Yes, my heart is broken – like never before, but I know that she’s in the best place where cancer, fatigue, shortness of breath, tears and pain is not an issue!!!
She is an amazing Mom. Grandmother. Friend. Wife. Sister. Daughter. Teacher. Writer. Impactor of her world…..
I miss her – more than I can ever say… But I know she and Jesus are having the most amazing time — and that He is Loving her – like she’s never been before!!!