Well my last blog post talked about this year being one of Valiant Courage and Unrelenting Bravery… if only I had known what that would really mean, or look like — even in these first 3 weeks of this year! I typically enter each new year with some sort of expectation of what my life will look like, however even knowing that those 4 words were already in my spirit — I hadn’t truly known what would be for me.
LOSS defined: destruction, ruin, a missing possession, deprivation, harm resulting in separation, failure to gain, win, obtain or utilize, a decrease in amount, magnitude or degree…
People typically don’t like LOSS (unless it comes to weight) and people typically don’t seek after LOSS (unless it’s the letting go of something ugly, unhealthy or dis-likable). Typically we don’t willingly embrace LOSS without a bit of struggle (unless it’s something they’re really wanting for our lives)… Well the past few weeks have been a test to that unrelenting bravery and valiant courage statement… I’ve experienced both the positive and the not so fun “joys” of loss.
Loss of Family. I’ve had 33 blessed years of life — to not have had to experienced loss of relatives or dear friends to death, until this week. I think most of us avoid this kind of loss — but loosing people or things that are dear to us, is something that is more difficult than anything we’d ever volunteer for. As we’ve seen and as we know, life is so incredibly fragile and seeing someone you love pass from this planet into something so much more…… it’s both difficult and yet sometimes freeing, at the same time! I don’t completely understand the HOW and WHY in which that connection with family (and other human beings) works — perhaps it’s in the very makeup and design God intended for us to live, that living IN community with one another, but the void that is left behind as a result of that passing is something words often fail to describe. And perhaps —- doesn’t need to be explained.
Loss of Relationships. Sometimes our choice – sometimes the choice of others. The potential sadness, hurt and void those losses cause and create in our/others lives – again are some of the most undefined moments and cause indescribable emotions. I’ve discovered in the past few years that although I may not have chosen to end a relationship, or even if I brought an end to a relationship myself, there are tough moments, many questions, and a change in perspective — but again, freedom, health and a fuller life is the result.
As I’ve had opportunity to think the past few weeks on loss — and what this year holds for me beyond the first few weeks, I am so aware, more than ever that God is always after our heart, the CORE of who we are! I so appreciate how He uses things (the tough “loss” circumstances) to bring more of “US” to the surface. We have been given CHOICE to address the selfishness, the insecurities, the ugliness of ourselves (or not)… but I’ve discovered that resulting health and perspective that flows out of that (in the midst of it all) —- is such an amazing thing!
So here’s to this year… whatever it holds!